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This just popped up on my mind. I miss my childhood and all shits that happened that time. Some people must have been thinking the same thing as above. As we grow up, we would like to do things that we already did in our childhood, like watching cartoons, playing games, having a midday nap after school, and more. But on the other side, we would also like to fix all of our mistakes in the past. Like, bullying our own classmate, arguing with parents, betraying our best friend, and more. And to tell you, I am one of those people. In elementary, I loved hitting my own classmates, being arrogant when I got A+ in every tests and/or when I was in ‘The Top Ten’ student list, and gossiping. In junior high, I betrayed my own best friend. Then, I became a lazy and silent girl in class for three years straight. And, became a shyly arrogant girl after being said, “You’re so pretty, girl.” In senior high, my laziness was increased and still silent for three years straight. And the wo...

Not sure if I am happy right now. I am just doing things as usual today, like playing games, checking messages, surfing the net, eating, playing with my cat, watching videos on YouTube , and sleeping. Those above are all my activities during my university's holiday. The first term stars from the end of December (around Christmas) until midst-February, while the second term starts from midst-June until the first week September. My dear readers, most of you will say, "Wow... that is quite a long day for holiday. Wish that my school/university is like that." But, I will not recommend this kind of holiday to you, guys, except that you have a lot of money that you can travel anywhere and anytime. It is boring as hell, wish I could go to university again because I miss my friends so much. Deep inside, I want to do a single productive activity during this holiday, like doing a part-time job or intern, learning how to drive a car, travelling around Jakarta, hanging...

2018. Why there were a lot of catastrophes happened that year? 2018. How did I survive that year? 2018. What was I learning from that year? 2018. A year where I had to lose my monthly-fees around 400k. Yes, that is a lot amount of money. With that amount, I could buy a lot of food, books, 'salty' things, and more. I could even buy some new clothes and pairs of shoes with that such amount. But, thanks to the main guest star (had to pay 50 million in advance, HA), financial report was being secluded until 3-4 days before the event started, and such things I can't mention, my peaceful life were ruined. I had to pay 400k on the earlier month, after I received my monthly-fee, to cover the deficit of ‘this’ event. And, (of course) my mum was mad at me after I told this. This is such a bad dream for the committees like me. We were full of rage back then. We cried a lot back then. We even dissed the head-chief back then. 2018. A year when someone said that I ...

My dear readers, do you know what one question that needs to be asked? Why God creates humans and what are His goals? I am sure that you can find those answers in a Bible. But to be honest, answers in a Bible are not enough for me. And more importantly, why did God create me? What are His goals for my future? Well, the answer is simple, “I do not know!” From far as I know, I am just an ordinary yet useless girl who is living in this cruel and competitive world. First, I was born in a well-financed family, I grow up as a normal person, I can get educations until being a public university student, and I also can travel around the world. My life can be said as a perfect life. But, why He chose these paths for me? Simple, “I do not know!” However, everything I have and live are not balanced with what I am actually doing in real life. When I was a high school student, my classmates labelled me as an introvert since I always stayed silence in class and never talked to anyon...